The AnnE. Blog

Well, I have more than once but last night for me seemed like the worst for so many things happend and I am not sure if they are my fault or if any one is to blame for this. But the facts are I felt left out of an outting and I feel that I have lost my two best friends and yet this time i don’t know what I did wrong. I am a jelous person I will admit taha tbut I try to be as ressonalbe and as fair as I can. I don’t like being left out of the loop for I feel lost but then everyone wants you to feel like you belong well how can you when you feel lost. I just wnat to be loved as I love them but i Have to realize that the lonly love like that can come from God for right now no one other than my blood family loves me like that and I am very thankful for them by loving me,

My mother thinks I am going though a nother depressive state adn she says it is because my boyfriend and i broke up. But I think she is right but i do not wnat to admit it to myslef for that means I love him more than i ever thought and it would hurt more fior i know he dose not love me that way. But nothing right now is making me happy nothing i do and nothign i use to love makes me happy i want to be happy I wnat to enjoy life but waking up each morning is getting harder and Harder. But my prayers I know should be for me but i cna’t help but feel selfish when i pray for myself and there are so many other people who i am close to who need my prayers than I that i don’t know what to do I want to be happy yet i don’t know where to begin to be happy anymore. I love you all who read this Thank you for your support and I will write more when i have time and do not feel like crying. Thank you

Well it is now two weeks into summer if not more I have already lost count and sadly not because I have been busy but becaue I have been board. But I now have a Job once agian at Old navy which i love it will be fun agian this summer well I hope it will be. So this summer so far. I relize I have gained weight and my mommy wants me to loose it because she has and that is great and she looks amaizing to me but i am happy the way I am and I am ok with that I just wish she was. Then, My friend Amanda just got married this Saturday which was a very pretty and beautiful wedding. And Chris is in town and we have seen each other a little bit and it has been good. But one person I can not get a hold of is my friend Miree. I am not sure if i did anything this time but we will see because she is not talking to me once agina or maybe she si really busy but I just wish i knew. ANy way it is enough talking for now before i Get my self into more trouble. Though I saw my friend andrew today that was interesting for we joked around like old friends and like nothgin had chnaged but when we talked you could tell that things have change alot.

I am college Material I may not be able to spell or do well in english classes but this semmester with everything that had happened. I can do college work and I am proud that i now see that i am better than just a C studend you are looking at a girl who only made one C this semester. How cool is that ?? I am so proud of myself who knows maybe i can get into grad school? I just hope i can keep this up . I am now home for the summer and contuniuing with my job at Old Navy but also looking to earn more cash cause college girls need money. Have a good night I know i will be sleeping well tonight and i will be at a party with my family tommorrow so i guess if you read this call the cell.